My heart is broken?

Bill Bang has torn my soul apart. If anyone out there has any information that I should know or you want information, please respond. This man has cheated on me, beat me, mentally abused me and I don't know where to find answers. He doesn't call. He has tried to discredit me and talk bad about me. I have done nothing to this man, but try and help him. I have never done anything to hurt him, yet he has no guilt about it. Does anyone have any guidance on how to deal with this? He knows I have been very suicidal and continues without a care. If anyone out there understands how living in a relationship where the other person is cheating makes you this way, please help. The whole reason I am like this is because I knew he was cheating. Call it a gut feeling, but I could tell. Any advise from men or woman on how to deal with this, I would so appreciate it. It may save a life.